Less Than 3 Months To Go

Surprise! The end of my challenge is coming up quickly now. I skipped writing last month because I was just tired of putting down the same old stuff. It seems to be taking me forever to learn what the universe is trying to teach me. I have managed to get myself back to where I was at the beginning of this challenge. How did I do that? Oh it's so easy..... but I have learned something this time.

First, I'm eating okay but also things that I know don't do me any good - like milk - hence my Rosacea is back with a vengeance; my colitis is taking forever to respond to the meds that I'm taking; I never did manage 2 days in a row of no sugar which means that I have yet to get some relief from the candida albican that is in my system. On the plus side I haven't gained any of the weight back that I have lost and I am so much more aware of the things that I eat and do make much better decisions when choosing food.

Second, financially things have gotten decidedly harder again. Back to living paycheck to paycheck. I take full responsibility for this scenario. It's not that I don't work hard when I'm at a job ... it's that I am having a hard time filling up my work day with money making jobs. Sometimes all I hear is my mother's voice telling me that I'm lazy and will never get anywhere ... I know that it is not true but every time I think that I have removed that voice it finds me .... very insidious this voice especially when she really only said this to me to try to get me to clean my room but boy did it ever stick to my soul.

Third, spiritually .... this part of my challenge has always been pushed aside. Oh, I would do some tokens things towards evolving but nothing too serious. Well, let me tell you that here is where I have learned the most important lesson. If I am going to call my challenge a success then first I must have faith. Yes, there is a Santa Claus/God/Higher Being/Benevolent Universe .... whatever turns your crank. We are here to find happiness, joy, love and success. If you look hard enough those attributes have been in and around you all your life even through the hard times. Think, dream, pray as positive as you can. Be vigilant about all the negative thoughts throughout the day as they can destroy the good that is all around you .... send those thoughts packing.

From today till the end of this challenge my goal is to practice enjoying each day as best as I can. Finding fun things to do and going to bed with a sense of accomplishment for a day well lived. Let's see if any changes come my way ....

One of the guides I'll be using: