Is it September Already?

Wow!  Have I got a serious case of procrastination.   Even easy things like cleaning off my desk are becoming huge inner battles and I'm losing.  I have just finished a week off and instead of returning to work refreshed with a sense of accomplishment, all I have is a feeling of lost time.  That is the main issue I have with inertia - lost time - which can lead to regret.  Oh, don't get me started with "regret" .... nasty little habit that.  So I can talk and talk and talk about this and write and write and write about it too but how to turn the tide.  I hear and understand everyone who says 'take one small step towards what you want' but it's driving me nuts trying to get that small step in.  Every time that I try, it seems to increase the inertia.

Well, it's September and I'm writing this so hey, that's one small step done.   Will let you know how it goes.

Time to Organize

The past month has been challenging on the health front.... starting with a weekend of stomach flu followed by an adverse reaction to a colon scope a few days later that lasted for 2 weeks.   I'm feeling much better now and am ready to get started.  This week is for organizing.  I realized that my desk has become a dumping ground again and that always reflects my emotions.  Surprisingly, cleaning and organizing externally helps me do the same internally... I've learnt that over the past few years.  I also want to start using the treadmill again and will be going down to the basement and logging in 15 minutes every night this week.   I've decided to start small and gradually work up to 45 minutes of exercising/day - 6 days a week.  I will also try to arrange my schedule so that I actually have one day a week for complete rest and relaxation....Sunday will be easiest to do this I think.  That's lots for me to get going with so off I go .....

New Challenges

Okay, I've been adjusting to the fact that I turned 50 years old.  There has definitely been a feeling of lost time, things that I haven't done and probably wont.  That ends today.  Time for some fun and a chance to accomplish some things that have been lurking at the back of my mind.

So what are the challenges?  Well, let's start with my health: my colitis has been preoccupying my attention and it's time to put it on a back burner and focus on overall health.  My goals are to eat healthier by removing as much packaged/premade foods as I can....to eat as clean as possible, to find different ways to bring physical movement back to my life, and to remove unwanted stress or at least find coping mechanisms that reduce stress' effects on my body... meditation, tai chi.   Once I can get these in place the end result should be to get my weight to 140 pounds(from 200) and to be energized and full of life.

Financially I've been in a rut.  There are times when I can see a slight change but then I fall back into old patterns going back to living a life of lack.  When I think back to my late teens, when everyone was asking me what I was going to do, my answer was that I planned on being a millionaire but the time I was thirty.  Well, they laughed at that .... only one person actually thought I could do it but unfortunately she was not the one I listened to.   Time to change that.  I'm well past thirty but what the heck, it would be fun to be a millionaire n'est pas?

Spiritually?  I think its time to tap into my creative self.  Write more maybe even a book.  Have fun with my appearance...steampunk maybe.   Live more of a comic book life - vibrant colours, surround myself with unique items, explore what makes me smile, find out what it is that I really want.

I'm not setting a time limit on this challenge.   I will over the next few weeks detail some of the steps that I plan on following to get me started.  Life changing .... that is my end goal, my start goal, my new lifelong plan.