17 Months .....

Last Sunday morning was spent in a parking lot in Scarborough ... well, Lynne had a work thing to do and Brandon (our son) and I went along for the ride.  It was a scanky little plaza with an Asian grocery store as the anchor and a bunch of discount clothing stores.  Brandon and I walked for about an hour down the main street and back but there wasn't much to see or do as it was early Sunday morning.  In the plaza was a small Asian bakery - Lynne fell in love.  Brandon mentioned that those bakeries are all over Toronto and my comment was that there would be tons of interesting eating/grocery places in Toronto followed by ... let's move to Toronto! ... she said yes. Hunh!  Wasn't expecting that but boy was I energized, which got me to thinking ....

Cambridge is boring!  It's a great place to raise a family and to do outdoorsy things but really and truly not a stimulating place for me.  It has been a good place for us to heal after the business failure but I think that it's time to find a healthier place (mentally) for us.  Is it Toronto?  I'm not sure but it would be fun to explore the different neighbourhoods and see if one seems to fit us best.  I'm not sure that Lynne's work would transfer her as they tend to want to keep people in the positions that they are successful at but I do know who the competition is in Toronto.....they might be hiring.   I would probably find work where ever we go - it would be easier in Toronto. 

Seventeen months .... that's giving us another year in this place.   There are things that need to be taken care of and/or settled before doing a major move to a new place.  Finances need to be in good order, jobs in place, stuff gone through and cleaned out. Cars fixed and what to do about parking decided - well that I already know we would get rid of one car for sure as both Lynne and I would prefer to be near the subway or major bus line. 

My health is much better but my weight has been creeping up to scary numbers again and that, I need to address.  Just thinking about moving to Toronto is energizing for me... making me want to get ready for all the walking that I would be doing.  Eat less move more ... easy to say but oh, so hard to do at times.  Seventeen months is more than long enough for radical changes in my health, wealth and general life.  Here goes! 

Forward Ho!

Hello Everyone,

Yes, I know. I've been quiet for too long but not anymore.   Ready?  I'm not....but here goes anyway.

Fear and anger.  That is what has been holding me back.  I'll deal with with them as the days go by but I've come to realize that it's time to take a deep breath, find my courage and move on. I want to be a happiness coach well, let's call it life coaching - not so out there.  For the past 15 years I've been reading all kinds of self improvement books, finding all kinds of internet sites and generally collecting a ton of information - some that I could personally use but most of it just interesting.  When I asked the universe what to do with all that I have been collecting... well, let me tell you - I was bombarded with coaching books, websites etc. and yet I still keep dragging my feet.  No longer.

I have a few days to myself this coming week and I plan on making a major move towards setting myself up.   There are some courses that eventually I'll sign up for so that I can get certified but at this time personally coaching is still generally unregulated  and I plan on diving in head first so to speak.   I'm ready for this in so many ways as long as I can move past the fear.  I'll use my anger as fuel to keep me on track - funny how much I can accomplish when I'm angry.  What am I angry about?  I'm not really sure yet but I will slowly work on it, accept it, move past it.  Finally, it's time to get unstuck and get busy becoming whatever and whomever I was meant to be .... wish me luck!

In love and peace .... La